This is Kristina expressing her thoughts on what she was thinking. you can tell she isnt feeling worried or guilty, she's just planning out her so called adventure like a teen should. I think this is important because it shows how her brain worked before the crystal meth got done with her. I think what will happen next is that she will lay low on the drug, but continue to do it.
"Not Sarah, my best friend since fourth grade, or any of my old crowd, all of whom live by the code of the D.A.R.E. pledge. I really didn't need to worry of course. All i had to do was leave things up to Bree, the godess of persuasion." (pg 7) hopkins
Here, Kristina is talking about how she doesnt know how to handle keeping quiet about her drug and where to be getting more. In Reno it was easy to find connects as a new person, but back home, she didnt have the same chance, or does she? Bree is her double persona. Bree is the monster she becomes when she is high, and she doesnt have to worry because Bree is the type of chick who takes life by the balls...What will happen next? I think she'll get exposed and her friends will notice a change in her.
"But one guy wasn't quite enough. I also ran into Chase Wagner that day. His outside wasn't as attractive , but inside he as fine. Of course, i didn't know that yet. I found out soon enough that both chase and Brendan knew the score, and both were interested in me. Brendan only wanted sex; Chase offered love. Either way, i had my path to the monster." (pg 10) hopkins
Kristina is like any other girl, interested in guys. I chose this quote because it shows she's still normal, she's not crazy, just determined. you can see that her path is on the wrong direction, because she has two choices of guys, Chase is obviously the better choice, but she doesnt seem to mind to go through loveless sex to get her drug. Why? does she want both? is this the life of a reckless teen? teen, yes, reckless no. Its common sense on what she did what she did, this is important because it shows how naive she's being. I think she will continue to spiral downward.
"Things are growing clearer. 'is there a problem,Mrs. Rosselli? I just want to catch up with old friends.' The longest pause of all. Your not their friend, Kristina. You're nothing but trouble they dont need." (pg 29) hopkins
Kristina is currently on the phone with Robyns mom, the sister of Trent, her old gay bestfriend, and she is the cheerleader who taught her how to smoke glass. It is pretty obvious that people have discovered the issue Kristina had and how much she struggled with a bad reputation. The mother of the bad influence is now telling Kristina she is a bad one. This is important because it shows the transition from nothing into everything, I think Kristina will get mad and start to tell her off.
"I apologize if I've ever done anything to offend you, or to hurt Robyn or Trent. I dont believe I have , but if you think so, please let me make it up to you.' oh yeah, I'm back in the game, and damn does it feel great."(pg 31) hopkins
Bree is back. This is what she does, she lies until she gets what she wants. (which is pretty normal for a girl!) lol. She is finishing up the conversation with Robyn's mom, and to my suprise she did not yell, she just lied. Which is less complicated? This is important because it is the first time she comes back as bree in the book. I think Bree is going to be comming around a lot more often. And mess with her head.
"I think almost everyone will agree. Get out of school or off work, put on clean clothes,and look for a way to escape reality-whether that's with alcohol,weed,or my all-time favorite:speed. I only used to use them when I was buzzed up real high, didn't mind slowing down a little. Being good all the time isn't just hard. It's dam boring.There's more to life than babies and books, and I'm overdue to go out and find a little fun"(pg 38) hopkins
There is an explination for the whole issue. Kristina is unhappy with herself, and she changes through drugs and finds herself in a fantasy world where she is having fun, and escaping from reality. I think she will find herself in a very mixed up road and shes going to wind up forgetting who she is.
"The mental bonds however, seem as strong as ever, and the piece of me that recognizes that knows I might be making a very big mistake."(pg 46) hopkins
Kristina is hungover from all the speed she had been doing, when she went to go visit her friend Robyn and they relapsed. She is talking about how being able to endure saying no to meth is not just physically hard, but more mentally. It's important because she knows shes doing wrong but why does she keep doing it? I think she will breakdown soon.
"He looks up at me with spectacular green eyes and, around my very sore nipple, smiles a toothless baby smile.That tender scene might make me change my mind, and truthfully. I have thought twice. But I don't want to think again." (Hopkins, pg 48)
Kristina is being very like stuck in denial because she's looking at her baby and cracking, because even though she loves her baby more than anything, she wants to feel how she used to feel. I think she'll realize she cannot get anything from drugs, like family moments.
"If it gets too late, promise me you'll stop and spend the nights, Mom insists. Here's some money.
Suddenly it strikes me that I haven't even thought about the money end of the transaction to come. Lucky me. A hundred will just about cover it." ( Hopkins, pg 49)
Kristina is wondering if what she's about to do is right. She lied to her mom about going to a college fair, and is borrowing the car. She is actually going with Robyn to go get high. She is observing how the coincedences around her are lucky in helping her get what she wants. Just like we were discussing with the alchemist, exept Kristina thinks it is luck. I think she is going to feel guilty for what she is about to do.
"He stops crying, looks up at me with big dark eyes, as if to say, You let me fall. How could you let me fall? That's not what a mother should do. And it hits me. Maybe Mom was right, after all." (hopkins pg 607)
Kristina had taken her baby trying to prove she can take care of it by herself. But she can't because she went to go get high in the other room and the baby fell down and bit his lip. This is an important part of the story because she is regreting what she did, i think her baby is what can fight her addiction. I think she will give her baby back to her mom.
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