Dostoevsky vs. Poe vs. Hopkins vs. Shakespear

Dostoevsky: Old, bitter, hopeless and lost, pessemistic, and plotting.
Poe: Thoughful, depressed, intellectual, demented, lost in a strange dark place.
Shakespear: Comedic, loving, ironic (in a sad kind of way), centuries old! but still relative.
Hopkins: Modern, teenager, struggling with a double side, addicted, trying to escape.

All these books have a great meaning to me. I didn't notice the relations until this morning when i finished reading crank, it made me reflect on my life. Crank is about a girl naed Kristinawho is trapped inside of her almost evil side that comes out whenever she does crystal meth. It shows how right after the awful (or great for her) first experience immediatly changed her. As if she instintly knew she was a different person. When she turned her back on her morals and decided to run free. (Which is basically what everyone is trying to acomplish, with the drugs possibly) It made me think back to a time when i lost or defined my innocence, and how immediatly my way of thinking went from hopeful little kid to angry teen Usually people think something terrible some awful suffering, twists and turns your mind into a swirl of thoughts. I guess people question god.
Bringing me to my next point.Philosophers always question god morals beliefs all the good stuff. well im ust trying to say philosophers are really intellectual people man. we all have a little philosopher in us if you think about it.
When someone goes through serious suffering they begin to think. it made me reflect not to be so pessemistic with adults because they were just like me till they hit the wall just as i am doing at the moment.
I chose these books out of few interests and keywords to understand my friends, there issues, why they suddenly seem so distant and far away. reading poe and dostoevsky made me realize we are all in the same fishbowl here, but i realized it even more when i read crank. seeing how it can happen to even a straight a student. the shame something so enlightening and so double sidedly evil can bring.
i hate thinking abpout how i will be in the future with all the negative choices i am currently making. it pains me to see youngs throw their future away while all the while i am not realizing to see my own. we always say oh i will be better oh im going to do this to do that. yet we always refall we always die out fade out thinking there is no tomorrow to just live it up. but what is the right way to live?
"NEVER PUT ANY HOPE IN TOMORROW, TAKE TODAY AND SIEZE THE DAY"