santiago's mind?

the alchemist"
main characters perspective: Well, i think that my vision was a miracle but a very strange sparatic one. even though it came in a quick scene it still happened and im flad it did because i really helped out and saced the oasis. it was thanks to the omens. the sould of the world has many elements and it was in favor of my spirits because i was in touch with my own observations just like any alchemist reads the surroundings.
Quote:"the secret is here in the present. if you pay attention to the present you can improve upon it. and if you improve on it later is will also be better. forget about the future and live each day according to the teachings. confident that god loves his childfen each day in itself brings with it and eternity"

Letter to Fatima from Santiago:
Dear Fatima, i really like you and i wish to marry you and spend the rest of my life with younot caring about anything else. i know you feel that our lives will be live everyone elses, i will travel you will stay, we will be married i will back dead, or alive but you shouldnt make those pessemistic assumptions, what the point of living life if you already know how its going to end? i think you have a personal legend as well just like everyone else and if you dig down you might be able to find it. i want to help.

my new semesturrrurur....

well my new semester is looking off to a bright start, then again so was last semester, its just up to me to continue my journey~~!!!...
im reading the series of crank, and these lists of new books i havent really gotten around to but im hoping to find one is called religion is a drug.
which is basiclly explaining that well in my words, people aka christians or catholics go to church every sunday to give grace. right? wrong. some are very contradicting!( what a shocker?!) -_-.
not ALL but SOME, very religious people go to church and pray out of fear. which indicates guilt. people who were raised into religious families brainwashed to believe the more perfect you are the more god will accept. (doesnt he love "all of his children"?????) 0.o. well think about it, some big ass like ranch dude is at church every sunday with his wife, and familiaaa yet every weekend you see the same dude cheating on his wife and junk. i mean if his faith is that strong to go every sunday its just as contradicting for him to have morals such as dishonesty, and what does that teach the little ones? personally, i dont know if theyre is a god..or a soul of the world, all i know is that theyre are plenty of issues to take care of here on earth. being grateful, living life, taking risks, understanding your emotions, blah blah, so here i am on earth screwing up my life because im a "teen" making stupid decisions, so thats normal right? why should i have to give in to the contradiction myself? what does that teach me? yes im a liberal person, so i would love to do anything "darng" if you would...jerk..lol but im not going to go pretend to myself that im an innocent perfect little girl, maybe to certain people, because it would kill them to see my pessemistic attitude, and i choose to hide certain things from certain people. and "god" is not one of them if he is certainly all seeing then he would have done something a long time ago, i guess? but anyway. im not going to go cloud my mind even more than it already is with some mumbo jumbo to get my spirits up. i have self esteem and friends for that. =]

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people always reflect in the most absurd moments,but thats the way it works best.sudden flashes of understanding and intensitylike that feeling you get when you just finished riding the best rollercoaster of your life. or that magical day you decide time is on your side skip school and go somewhere freeeeeeyupthings happen in life and apparantley im supposed to jot down my ideas right here.basically im just trying to live life without much thought because it might just stick me down to the floor and leave me curled up in a ball crying for help.life can get you into messy messes but it makes it all worth while with that thing called love.

Dostoevsky vs. Poe vs. Hopkins vs. Shakespear

Dostoevsky: Old, bitter, hopeless and lost, pessemistic, and plotting.
Poe: Thoughful, depressed, intellectual, demented, lost in a strange dark place.
Shakespear: Comedic, loving, ironic (in a sad kind of way), centuries old! but still relative.
Hopkins: Modern, teenager, struggling with a double side, addicted, trying to escape.

All these books have a great meaning to me. I didn't notice the relations until this morning when i finished reading crank, it made me reflect on my life. Crank is about a girl naed Kristinawho is trapped inside of her almost evil side that comes out whenever she does crystal meth. It shows how right after the awful (or great for her) first experience immediatly changed her. As if she instintly knew she was a different person. When she turned her back on her morals and decided to run free. (Which is basically what everyone is trying to acomplish, with the drugs possibly) It made me think back to a time when i lost or defined my innocence, and how immediatly my way of thinking went from hopeful little kid to angry teen Usually people think something terrible some awful suffering, twists and turns your mind into a swirl of thoughts. I guess people question god.
Bringing me to my next point.Philosophers always question god morals beliefs all the good stuff. well im ust trying to say philosophers are really intellectual people man. we all have a little philosopher in us if you think about it.
When someone goes through serious suffering they begin to think. it made me reflect not to be so pessemistic with adults because they were just like me till they hit the wall just as i am doing at the moment.
I chose these books out of few interests and keywords to understand my friends, there issues, why they suddenly seem so distant and far away. reading poe and dostoevsky made me realize we are all in the same fishbowl here, but i realized it even more when i read crank. seeing how it can happen to even a straight a student. the shame something so enlightening and so double sidedly evil can bring.
i hate thinking abpout how i will be in the future with all the negative choices i am currently making. it pains me to see youngs throw their future away while all the while i am not realizing to see my own. we always say oh i will be better oh im going to do this to do that. yet we always refall we always die out fade out thinking there is no tomorrow to just live it up. but what is the right way to live?
"NEVER PUT ANY HOPE IN TOMORROW, TAKE TODAY AND SIEZE THE DAY"

edgar allen poe

i really like really his stuff because it has a lot of gory things to read about like when the cat claws his eye out and i love how he isnt afraid of writing the worst or the saddest stories i like when the wine taster dude is having an affair with the fat guys wife and he goes crazy and puts them in the wall but his concious ruins him because the cat makes him go nuts . i like how that relates to life i mean if you have a fat wife you should be glad you have what you have and not thinking you can just live your life as a youngster and it shows how people who are just trying to be happy get caught up in problems like as if people do not want them to succeed which is basiclly what we always think. people are trying to SABOTAGE us hahah and i think we should just pay attention to these type of books because they can show us how self destructed we can make ourselves.

the big book of heavy metal

im reading this book on the history of every type of metal its actually and encyclepedia its a good book especially with the intentions of making other people understand a genre that seems to scare old ladies into churches. it may not have opinions i always want to hear but it has really good information about the fashion the history the music the followers, blah blah the works. i really like the book because it made me discover the old bands i used to be into and the ones that kind of faded away like sweet and yes. plus it helped me discover old bands i never heard of i encountered many chick bands and it inspired me in a lot of ways plus ive been listening to them alot more. i found the book while i was cleaning my room it was actually my brothers when he was like thirteen or fourteen which is pretty funny with the whole idea about history repeating itself.

OUR GRAND OPENING

WE WILL BE HAVING A GRAND OPENING AT THE LINCOLN HEIGHTS COMMUNITY ART GALLERY ON SATURDAY JAN. 31ST IN THE AFTERNOON.
WE ARE ON THE CORNER OF WORKMAN AND BROADWAY
WE WILL BE HAVING:

• LIVE ART
• FREE THINGS FOR KIDS??
• FOOD FOR SALE
• MORE INFORMATION ABOUT FUTURE CLASSES AND EVENTS

thank youuu :D